Contentment

Growing up, what mattered most in my household was appearance and possessions, which led me to believe at an early age that my parents’ 3 houses, 5 cars, boat, and membership at the cricket club was what was important in life. I clearly remember working hard as a 15 year old just to buy a new Benetton sweater so I could measure up to the rich girls’ standards. I felt pretty for a moment, but I quickly realized I still felt empty and worthless. I kept looking to the next new thing for comfort only for it not to last. Outwardly we appeared as a family who was put together and righteous, but inside, behind closed doors, we were full of hypocrisy, rage, and lawlessness. 

During my freshman year of college, I went on a mission trip to Harlan, Kentucky, the poorest county in the USA. The foreman of our team and his family of four lived in a one-bedroom house. He worked 12-hours, six days a week, and then he and his family would lead worship around a campfire every night with humility and joy that was contagious. His truck was rusty and falling apart. His job barely covered the bills, and he had never been on a vacation. He shared Jesus everywhere we walked and praised God for clean water, the old clothes on his back, and the leaky roof over their head. 

When our “mission week” ended, we were overwhelmed with how little we valued the possessions we brought with us. Our cute boots, trendy backpacks, and shiny tools were freely left behind. We had experienced true joy and deep contentment that surpassed our belongings and was rooted in knowing Jesus and making Him known. Our brothers and sisters in Kentucky were the happiest people I have ever met; they taught me that Jesus plus nothing equals everything. 

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Father, every good gift I have is from You. Please forgive me for my discontentment with Your provision. Thank You for always being with me and for giving me everything I need for life and godliness through Christ. May the things of this world grow strangely dim in the light of Your glory and grace. Amen.